1. |
Ferret
01:16
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if they dont get it that is alright
there is so much that theyve gone and left behind
this world is furry far as i see
i am a ferret plain as can be
this world is fair like animal things
when im downtrodden theres nothing else to be
this world is gentle, just as can be
gentle to me
the rest is up to me
i know that they cant even
prescribe you your meds
but
i think its all worth the person
that you are
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2. |
i hate anime
02:30
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do you think thats far enough
do you think she's bled enough
do you still feel anything
do you think she likes it rough
do think shes hard again
do you think shes ready yet
have you tasted of her flesh
will you wait till she wakes up
maybe to you its obvious
and you just deal with it
but it never had to be like this
ive killed someone like you before
i cut them up and closed the door
are you ever satisfied
would you stop with just one life
or will you take more fucking kids
you pathetic fucking worm
you oughtta hang with a fucking belt
if you're really too gone to see
youre submerged in fucking shit
in the sexual opiate internet
im so sorry
your life turned out like this
i promise nothing ever had to be like this
im sorry to everyone
who will be in the future too,
please dont be the one to do it too
right hand to god it never ends
get out while you can
just realize
none of this is real life
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3. |
Hellworld
04:49
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dream reflective
introspective
hate myself, blame myself
scry my dream
i always know
and each thing is
just as it seems
each mockery hints at me it speaks to me
ive seen the theme
one time is not enough
normal i appear sane again
always again
he's in my head now
wont let me rest now
tear me up and fuck me up
ive felt my pain
its not enough
i need more than i can get on my own
angels invade my home
and tie my noose with your hands
use me for your plans
i know im meant for it...
use me
im meant for it
use me
use me
fuck me up on the inside
bruise my flesh
break my neck
every time i raise my head
the dreamweaver lets me know
im meant to be used as a
oh
chained to the floor
meant to be my angels whore
my guardian wants to rape me
why sohuldn't i just let him save me
for himself
god knows whats right he loves me just as i am
under his knife
fuck
he loves my mutilation
i love being a fucking plaything
suffering is this world
my favorite part is when i cry
handcuff me to the sink and leave me
to die
i think ive figured it out
i know why im alive
i am only a slave
i am crucified
where others are petrified
i stay mobile in the light
of my god
oh my god it feels so good
it burns so good
dreamwalking is my life
im meant to be endlessleep
sleep walking is my life
im meant endless in fantasy
that rapes me
it is a gift to see real life
im perfect
and im reliable
im infalliable
as lifes narrator
ive seen god
ive seen my creator
i love my hellworld
more than they would
my favorite part is when i cry
handcuff me to the sink and leave me
to die
my favorite part is when i cry
handcuff me to the sink and leave me
to die
my favorite part is when i cry
handcuff me to the sink and leave me
to die
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4. |
perfect angel
03:11
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you think your purpose terrifies us
you think your birthright is our fear
were lucky you think so much
we could be so much worse than uncomfortable
you could kill us at a moments notice
we're so lucky you're our friend
we should have worshipped you should have begged for you
not to shoot us instead
so idolize me like satan the way im self obsessed
forever im gods most hated child, identified as angel
beautiful melancholic only self hatred can propel
self harm cinematic cleansing my sin
beautiful melancholic
ill fucking kill myself
ill kill myself
you think your purpose terrifies us
you think your birthright is our fear
were lucky you think so much
we could be worse than uncomfortable
so idolize me like satan the way im self obsessed
forever im gods most hated child, identified as angel
so idolize me like satan the way im self obsessed
forever im gods most hated child, identified as angel
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5. |
Lucy Machineghost
03:31
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almost real again
or maybe just remembering
grip on real life slipping
still inside your screen
do i terrify you
if im not masking
if i were genuine
how would you remember me
i think maybe im not really that self aware
i think ill trash my ego let the world stare
staying clean under cool water
theres no reason i have to be
an angel yet
almost real again
or maybe just remembering
grip on real life slipping
still inside your screen
lucy machineghost
not meant for real life
i think maybe im not really that self aware
i think ill trash my ego let the world stare
i think the hardest aprt is trusting that im sane
is it worth it
trusting everything
loving
everything
almost real again
or maybe just remembering
grip on real life slipping
still inside your screen
lucy machineghost
not meant for real life
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6. |
peach nectar
04:41
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i wonder who dies first
i think of things like this all the time
would you deal with knowing i was real
i figure ill keep rope just in case...
this used to scare me
the solitude
im a fan of the pain it makes it real
i could think of worse things than this-
ill stay with you.
ill stay with you.
ill stay with you.
ill stay with you.
ill stay with you.
im afraid of the silence...
im well used to it by now.
this isnt forever
and certainly not for me
i was meant to know the warmth of the sun
and most certainly meant to plummet back down to the sea
ill stay with you.
ill stay with you.
ill stay with you.
ill stay with you.
ill stay with you.
ill stay with you.
ill stay with you.
ill stay with you.
ill stay with you.
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7. |
goodbye, again!
03:58
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im so grateful
for this test
im peaceful
for my certain death
i think about everything all the time
and thats alright
im just a ghost
same as always
im
just a wounded animal
i can see so clear
im in heaven
its just something i cannot feel
would it be alright
if i withdrew
its not that i dont like you
its that im not truly allowed to
im beginning to recognize
that not everything in my head is me
and everything i think for my safety
is just distracting me
i
feel like im missing limbs
i realize my imperfections
are holding me still
underwater
though i havent quite drowned
beneath the surface
yet i am still found
by people fascinated with my honest self
the more i care about you
the less i show it
im so grateful
for my friends
so peaceful
in my unrest
i think about everything all the time
and thats alright
your beloved ghost
same as always
im
just a wounded animal
i can see so clear
im in heaven
its just something i cannot feel
i want to see you
youre right here but
im not
everything is always just fine
you can see my flesh just fine
neurotic emulator
my voice is just the echo
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8. |
visage
04:10
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my smooth skinned visage drips red with blush
featureless face sexual anima like ghost
stench of dropshipped open backed sweater
(β) inhuman by your ahegao print clothes
lucy dreamwalker
is a suicidal system stopper microwave last meal
before im hung by a belt
machineghost watcher eyes hungrily
still pressed against glass inside your screen
grew and cut my hair 10 years for the day the rope was long enough to hang \
my dyed gradient white noose in my redbath cloth chamber
remember blink dot structures when i noticed my eyelids were heavy
childhood ages have passed with no feeling from my body
a world reduced to liminal plants in your museum hallway
my face is different each day people say as they pass and
in the mirror my face-clay waves gently in time with my
red fingers that slip from real life
my smooth skinned visage drips red with blush
featureless face sexual anima like ghost
TRANSCRIPT:
im in the middle of the second message
cuz when you said they stopped talking,
right when they met you
like thats what im talking about with communication like
its all about body mannerisms
because i feel like- you're literally...
like im just being for real okay? no.. no... no hate.
but you're literally scary. you're a creature among men.
you're a creature among like, the human race.
and i dont think that really shows through voice messages and video.
but seeing you in person, seeing you so tall, and everything adding up
its, its kinda scary. and you talking in real life is a lot scarier than
you talking online. i gotta be like... like no, no hate. nothing like that.
this is all just... okay?
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9. |
machine4ngel, tethered
04:16
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to a ghost in my dream hallway:
im better now like coins from AA.
if you ask i say i no longer feel that way...
but i understand.
every little thing i think bothers me
i feel like it defines me
think i might be better dead
for the wounds my life gave me
its not my fault
if i scare you
id like to see you stop me
do think i make a scary face
when i think of the things i love
this could be be much worse.
you're lucky i think so much...
and stop my flawed form from embracing evil
who am i kidding
this isnt how im meant to be.
trapped inside myself filtering
work for people that doesnt exist
for people that could really care less
its just sometimes i worry
that im better...
but not really
if you ask i say i no longer feel that way...
but i understand.
ill be the purest life this world has ever seen...
just not today.
when i die i will be replaced
by hoardes of angels, untainted
if im imperfect ill kill myself
let gods favorites pave the way
i was born an angel so pure in life
wings torn and trampled to death
i should love everything
im just so afraid
if you ask i say i no longer feel that way...
but i understand.
ill be the purest life this world has ever seen...
just not today.
when i die i will be replaced
by hoardes of angels, untainted
if im imperfect ill kill myself
let gods favorites pave the way
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10. |
Perfect Child
04:25
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fucking cowards
you dont give a FUCK about the kids
unless its with your fucking dick
posing as youth pastor
i didnt choose shit
my life was chose just for me
by people who didnt want the real me
perfect child
your life is yours
should i strike you
its what you want
you're in control
not i
like the real world
my feelings are much too terrifying
i couldnt face that
i think ill have children instead
you're in control
not i
i imagine a perfect world
where nobody scares me
not because i grew up and got over it
but killed them instead
my life is beautiful
just the way i cant face it
in their very best interest,
the children i hate are failures
why dont you hit me harder
why dont you hurt us more
why dont you make us psychopaths
built for your war.
i'll fuck you up
i cant take it anymore
stop, stop
you convince the most abused
and misunderstood
children that satan lives in their heads
and
wonder why they're so repressed
that they fill a classroom full of lead
children seem so confused about their life
how nice to take it from them instead
why dont you hit them harder
why dont you abuse them more
why not make children psychopaths
just for your war
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